It is officially over...i m single
Was blogging this during office hour..hope wont get caught thou…but I guess I am accountable to people out there who cares a lot for me and wondering what is going on with my life with Alvin…
Well…it is over…we have both make things clear to each other…he told me to take lotsa care n vice versa…I told him to go find a good job and carve out a career for himself…initially, he was telling me that he wanna live his own life..most prob evolving around his nasty past..something which I don’t hope to see…he has come such a long way…even zhiwei says that he had seen a drastic change in him..a positive change..i feel that he had turn from a ‘black’ to a ‘white’…I guess only fang would understand what I am tokin abt..well..he doesn’t wanna lose me…but then again, you cannot force love right? I don’t deny that I have totally no feelings for him, it is just that our feelings are not mutual..i cannot give him the amount of love he needs. We remain as friends..something which I found that is very amazing as he seldom or rather, never remain in contact with his ex-gfs……he added that if I were to get bullied by an guy or need some help, I can approach him….he sounded very reluctant to let me go and he said: “sigh, I can’t be so selfish to hold back your happiness.” I was actually getting softhearted upon hearing this...however, being very stubbon, i didn’t change my mind…I told him simply: “I just can’t commit at the moment.”
Anyway..gotten a surprise sms from him this morn…he was telling me that he wanted to start his life all over whereby he will start to look for a good job and carve out his career and guess what? He is going to the gym!! I am shocked..very shocked…well..it is still early to tell though..He ask for 1 year to prove himself…but if I were to get attached again, he will wait for me till the day i get married...that was all what he said then…time will tell…in a meanwhile, I would just like to enjoy my singlehood after being in a relationship for 2years 8 months, it is time to take a break though…cIao for now!
Specially for fang, coreen, bingyu, marcus and to my dearest sis, thanks for listening and helping…love u all lots....as for wen, wx, huajun and alll...sorry if i didn;t confide in u...just that i didn;t wanna spread it ard tt i m single or what...i just wanna be alone now...so pardon me if i choose not to meet u all or dun really wanna talk to u on the phone...all i can say is that i m grateful to noe i still have great pals ard with me...
Well…it is over…we have both make things clear to each other…he told me to take lotsa care n vice versa…I told him to go find a good job and carve out a career for himself…initially, he was telling me that he wanna live his own life..most prob evolving around his nasty past..something which I don’t hope to see…he has come such a long way…even zhiwei says that he had seen a drastic change in him..a positive change..i feel that he had turn from a ‘black’ to a ‘white’…I guess only fang would understand what I am tokin abt..well..he doesn’t wanna lose me…but then again, you cannot force love right? I don’t deny that I have totally no feelings for him, it is just that our feelings are not mutual..i cannot give him the amount of love he needs. We remain as friends..something which I found that is very amazing as he seldom or rather, never remain in contact with his ex-gfs……he added that if I were to get bullied by an guy or need some help, I can approach him….he sounded very reluctant to let me go and he said: “sigh, I can’t be so selfish to hold back your happiness.” I was actually getting softhearted upon hearing this...however, being very stubbon, i didn’t change my mind…I told him simply: “I just can’t commit at the moment.”
Anyway..gotten a surprise sms from him this morn…he was telling me that he wanted to start his life all over whereby he will start to look for a good job and carve out his career and guess what? He is going to the gym!! I am shocked..very shocked…well..it is still early to tell though..He ask for 1 year to prove himself…but if I were to get attached again, he will wait for me till the day i get married...that was all what he said then…time will tell…in a meanwhile, I would just like to enjoy my singlehood after being in a relationship for 2years 8 months, it is time to take a break though…cIao for now!
Specially for fang, coreen, bingyu, marcus and to my dearest sis, thanks for listening and helping…love u all lots....as for wen, wx, huajun and alll...sorry if i didn;t confide in u...just that i didn;t wanna spread it ard tt i m single or what...i just wanna be alone now...so pardon me if i choose not to meet u all or dun really wanna talk to u on the phone...all i can say is that i m grateful to noe i still have great pals ard with me...
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