birthday feelings
Twenty first birthday meant a whole lot to me. It was celebrated with mixed feelings, joy and anticipation. And of course, with the company of my family, close poly friends and batch 85 people, that 13 August felt rather complete but not totally. Reason being, there was a missing jigsaw to my puzzle. That jigsaw was him. But i understand he has to work. So to forgo coming to my Birthday is a big sacrifice both of us had to make.
I spent alot of time on this somewhat simple celebration. And the worse part was, iam a darn picky perfectionista. Everything, from the colors of balloons, to the layout of the invitation card was suppose to be PERFECT. But of course, slight hiccups though.
As mentioned, i had mixed feelings. On one hand, i want to grow up badly and be more mature in my thinking. On the other hand, i just want to be free from all responsibilities that come along now. But of course, that was an irresponsible statement. I know i cant do that.
Have you ever wonder what does turning twenty-one means to you? Has it ever occur to you that you're already an adult? And you should think and behave like an adult? I believe many friends who has been through their twenty-first dont see the significance of adulthood. Pardon me if iam wrong but that was what i observed.
Have you ever thought about your future? Have you ever try to make plans on what you're gonna do after you grad from Uni? Have you thought of a long-term investment so that your parents can happily retire from the working scene? Have you manage to tap on your strengths and improve your weaknesses so as to prepare yourself for survival? Have you?
Practical issues aside. How about emotional issues? Have you tried to grow up and think like a mature adult? Are you able to constantly put your emotions one side when studies or work comes along? Are you able to immune yourself from any hurt that occur?
All these issues have always been embedded in my mind. The moment where i fully understood and analyse the issues was when i turned twenty one. It was just so coincidence that my family had some issues that week. And that was probably the trigger to my thoughts. I know, i think too much. But as mentioned before, time waits for no man. And i aint gonna wait.
Note: iam in the midst of creating a new blog skin. Pardon my entries, or rather, the lackof it :)
I spent alot of time on this somewhat simple celebration. And the worse part was, iam a darn picky perfectionista. Everything, from the colors of balloons, to the layout of the invitation card was suppose to be PERFECT. But of course, slight hiccups though.
As mentioned, i had mixed feelings. On one hand, i want to grow up badly and be more mature in my thinking. On the other hand, i just want to be free from all responsibilities that come along now. But of course, that was an irresponsible statement. I know i cant do that.
Have you ever wonder what does turning twenty-one means to you? Has it ever occur to you that you're already an adult? And you should think and behave like an adult? I believe many friends who has been through their twenty-first dont see the significance of adulthood. Pardon me if iam wrong but that was what i observed.
Have you ever thought about your future? Have you ever try to make plans on what you're gonna do after you grad from Uni? Have you thought of a long-term investment so that your parents can happily retire from the working scene? Have you manage to tap on your strengths and improve your weaknesses so as to prepare yourself for survival? Have you?
Practical issues aside. How about emotional issues? Have you tried to grow up and think like a mature adult? Are you able to constantly put your emotions one side when studies or work comes along? Are you able to immune yourself from any hurt that occur?
All these issues have always been embedded in my mind. The moment where i fully understood and analyse the issues was when i turned twenty one. It was just so coincidence that my family had some issues that week. And that was probably the trigger to my thoughts. I know, i think too much. But as mentioned before, time waits for no man. And i aint gonna wait.
Note: iam in the midst of creating a new blog skin. Pardon my entries, or rather, the lackof it :)
|9:48 AM|
twenty one
It's 15 more minutes and,
I'ii be turning TWENTY-ONE. (mixed feelings)
I'ii be turning TWENTY-ONE. (mixed feelings)
|11:40 PM|
immorality?
The changing faces of our society. Everything has changed. We can no longer compare the society now to the one 20 years back. People always say: "Nowadays, we are becoming more liberal." Another reply: "Ya ya, i totally understand." Seriously, how much do you understand? Do you know what is the meaning of liberal?
To put it crudely, everyone sleeps around. Do you know that most married men has affairs outside? The word faithful no longer rings a bell in marriages. Do you know that your bf could be sleeping with his cousin while in a relationship with you? I know this is incest but people still does it. Do you know that ladies sleep with bosses to secure their career? Yes, this is immoral as some people puts in but to survive, what's not to be done? Do you know that your brother could be sleeping with your wife whenever you go abroad? Do you that your girlfriend might be two-timing you at any moment in your life? Do you know that your boyfriend might be bringing other girls out to club when he says: "tonight is an all-boys night."?
Tell me, do you know all these? As much as i don't wish to accept the society becoming like this, i can't. It is because all those mentioned above were what i had witnessed. THIS is the society we are living in. Wake up to reality, life just isn't a fairytale. When society changes, we have to change to keep up. Please dont be mistaken. When i accept this change, i am just accepting the theory as well as the actions done by other people. I certainly wont tolerate my own bf or husband committing adultry or incest.
To be honest, i used to be uncomfortable with the idea of dating married men or a divorcee. But now, my concept has changed. I feel that when two are in love, there is no right or wrong. It is just the way of how you handle the relationship. If a couple is really happy with each other, why should we judge? Why dont we give blessings to this wonderful relationship? Let me just say this. It is UNCOMMON to see friends' relationship going so well. Even i faced problems with mine. So to me, a good relationship is just so hard to find.
Iii be turning 21 in a week's time and iam already able to see the problems of this society. All thanks to my boss and the people who relate their experiences to me. You have already step into the working society for many years but yet, you seemed to be way way more naive than me. And please, dont judge other people when you arent even mature enough to handle this society. Thank you.
To put it crudely, everyone sleeps around. Do you know that most married men has affairs outside? The word faithful no longer rings a bell in marriages. Do you know that your bf could be sleeping with his cousin while in a relationship with you? I know this is incest but people still does it. Do you know that ladies sleep with bosses to secure their career? Yes, this is immoral as some people puts in but to survive, what's not to be done? Do you know that your brother could be sleeping with your wife whenever you go abroad? Do you that your girlfriend might be two-timing you at any moment in your life? Do you know that your boyfriend might be bringing other girls out to club when he says: "tonight is an all-boys night."?
Tell me, do you know all these? As much as i don't wish to accept the society becoming like this, i can't. It is because all those mentioned above were what i had witnessed. THIS is the society we are living in. Wake up to reality, life just isn't a fairytale. When society changes, we have to change to keep up. Please dont be mistaken. When i accept this change, i am just accepting the theory as well as the actions done by other people. I certainly wont tolerate my own bf or husband committing adultry or incest.
To be honest, i used to be uncomfortable with the idea of dating married men or a divorcee. But now, my concept has changed. I feel that when two are in love, there is no right or wrong. It is just the way of how you handle the relationship. If a couple is really happy with each other, why should we judge? Why dont we give blessings to this wonderful relationship? Let me just say this. It is UNCOMMON to see friends' relationship going so well. Even i faced problems with mine. So to me, a good relationship is just so hard to find.
Iii be turning 21 in a week's time and iam already able to see the problems of this society. All thanks to my boss and the people who relate their experiences to me. You have already step into the working society for many years but yet, you seemed to be way way more naive than me. And please, dont judge other people when you arent even mature enough to handle this society. Thank you.
|10:23 AM|