i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish you were here. In the midst of a lonely night.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish you were here. In the midst of a lonely night.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish to abandon everything and leave.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish for peace within myself.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish for peace within myself.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish to fulfil my childhood dream.
A dream of going to the Maldives and Venice.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish to fulfil my childhood dream.
A dream of going to the Maldives and Venice.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish to be less melancholic.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish to be less melancholic.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish to be a thinker no more.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish for you to be my last.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish to lead a more fulfilling life.
i wish.
i wish.
sometimes, i wish for all wishes to be true.
|1:32 AM|
you said that iam a very unconventional girl.
you predicted my life and fate.
sounds negative to me.
you added that i can't do anything to reverse my fate.
But iam unconventional, remember.
i don't follow rules. Not any house rules, school rules and certainly not your rules.
iam going to change my fate.
you just wait and see.
you predicted my life and fate.
sounds negative to me.
you added that i can't do anything to reverse my fate.
But iam unconventional, remember.
i don't follow rules. Not any house rules, school rules and certainly not your rules.
iam going to change my fate.
you just wait and see.
|11:11 PM|
I got a burnt today.
Nope, i didn't go to sentosa. Neither did i go for a swim. Bet no one can ever guess where i got my tan from. Read carefully. Yours truly received this burnt at IMH, Institute of Mental Health. When i told my friends, they nearly fell off their chairs.
Anyway, i was there for my community service. My friends and i are currently constructing a therepeutic garden for IMH at Block 6. So if you were ever to be there in year 2060, do remember that i contributed in planning this beautiful garden to aid your recovery k (:
We planted the garden from scratch. There is only 1 guy and 4 other ladies in my group. I offered to do the digging of the soil. And that has caused a tremendous sore in both my arms. My fingers turned stiff. I can't even hold a pen properly now. Darn! Anyway, the patients were quite friendly. In fact, too friendly. I felt a lil' afraid cause all 6 of us had to walk through the male-wards to exit or get to the washroom. The male patients just went all hysterical. I think they were all excited. I regretted wearing my shorts though.
Whatever, iam digressing.
I was surfing through friendster a moment ago. And i simply don't understand why some ladies put their ages as 20, 21 when they are like, 25, 26, 29? (Iam in my criticising mood now. So pardon me) I mean, hellooo, you are waaayyy past your prime age of 21. Who are you trying to kid? Yes, it's none of my business to meddle in their stuff. But it's also none of anyone's business to meddle in what iam meddling right? (oh, am i talking sense?) Argh. Weird people.
Note: Ser babe, what happened to your bloggy? i cant access ):
Nope, i didn't go to sentosa. Neither did i go for a swim. Bet no one can ever guess where i got my tan from. Read carefully. Yours truly received this burnt at IMH, Institute of Mental Health. When i told my friends, they nearly fell off their chairs.
Anyway, i was there for my community service. My friends and i are currently constructing a therepeutic garden for IMH at Block 6. So if you were ever to be there in year 2060, do remember that i contributed in planning this beautiful garden to aid your recovery k (:
We planted the garden from scratch. There is only 1 guy and 4 other ladies in my group. I offered to do the digging of the soil. And that has caused a tremendous sore in both my arms. My fingers turned stiff. I can't even hold a pen properly now. Darn! Anyway, the patients were quite friendly. In fact, too friendly. I felt a lil' afraid cause all 6 of us had to walk through the male-wards to exit or get to the washroom. The male patients just went all hysterical. I think they were all excited. I regretted wearing my shorts though.
Whatever, iam digressing.
I was surfing through friendster a moment ago. And i simply don't understand why some ladies put their ages as 20, 21 when they are like, 25, 26, 29? (Iam in my criticising mood now. So pardon me) I mean, hellooo, you are waaayyy past your prime age of 21. Who are you trying to kid? Yes, it's none of my business to meddle in their stuff. But it's also none of anyone's business to meddle in what iam meddling right? (oh, am i talking sense?) Argh. Weird people.
Note: Ser babe, what happened to your bloggy? i cant access ):
|11:26 PM|
Valentine's day yesterday.
We watched "I Not Stupid Too" at Lido. One of the best movies i have caught so far. It's way way better than the first one. Iain't gonna elaborate on the movie and whatsoever emotions that affected the people at the cinema. You go watch and judge it for yourself alright.
He didn't get me flowers. I requested him not to. A year ago, i blogged about flowers and my personal dislike for it. I think flowers are impractical. They just wither. And like what all girls will do, those flowers will be placed in jars or bottles as porpourri.
To me, it aint porpourri. They are mass breeding grounds and graveyards for insects. yucks! Anyway, it saved him money too la. (Read: Iam a low maintenance girl.) Price of flowers gets greatly inflated during Vday. Yknow, for every couple that we walked passed yesterday, my mind just automatically went: Luo po luo po! (read: carrot carrot!) if the lady was carrying a bouquet or stalk. If you don't catch the joke, never mind. Iam just being lame. We walked passed many individuals who tried selling flowers to us. He didn't have to reject them cause i would do the job. And that really shut them up. Seriously, a guy buying flowers for a girl on Vday itself seemed insincere.
I actually told my gfs that i wont be getting any stuff for him this Vday. But i still created something in the end; Small little handmade cards in which he mentioned that they were the most meaningful gifts that he ever received + his favourite Baci Chocs. Those Baci Chocs damm hard to find and i think they stopped mass-producing those bigger pieces.
He made me guess my present. Think i studied too much in the morning. My mind went kinda blank at every of his hint. Either that or his hints were...Well, you judge (:
1) It is soft
2) It is bigger than the box
3) It is wearable
4) It is foldable
5) You were looking for it for a long long time
6) It has two small holes and one big hole (This hint was the ultimate!!!!)
7) The color is very close to me. (i was sitting on a red sofa of pastamania)
Sounds like condoms right? I think that "hole" hint was the weirdest. My head kept screaming:"what hole what hole?!!" Before anyone think dirty or whatsoever it is, iam gonna give you the answer.
It is a pair of orange-red Nike running shorts.
I have been eyeing a pair of Adidas one. It is also orange-red. I love the cutting in particular. But they stopped producing last year. Was searching for quite long. But never mind. The Nike pair is sufficient.
We had a good long chat at Lido MacCafe. Those were the moments that i wish that it will go on and on. But the atmosphere just aint that romantic. With 50Cent and Sean Paul songs playing at the cafe, it felt like Chinablack. Speaking of that, i should be back at the clubbing scene pretty soon.
Sorry for digressing. Anyway, i still prefer East Coast. Our usual bench. The cool sea breeze. The miserable number of stars that i can just stare for hours. We just didn't have the time to go unfortunately. Well, next year. Maybe next year. Anyway, to be able to spend this day with him is good enough.
We watched "I Not Stupid Too" at Lido. One of the best movies i have caught so far. It's way way better than the first one. Iain't gonna elaborate on the movie and whatsoever emotions that affected the people at the cinema. You go watch and judge it for yourself alright.
He didn't get me flowers. I requested him not to. A year ago, i blogged about flowers and my personal dislike for it. I think flowers are impractical. They just wither. And like what all girls will do, those flowers will be placed in jars or bottles as porpourri.
To me, it aint porpourri. They are mass breeding grounds and graveyards for insects. yucks! Anyway, it saved him money too la. (Read: Iam a low maintenance girl.) Price of flowers gets greatly inflated during Vday. Yknow, for every couple that we walked passed yesterday, my mind just automatically went: Luo po luo po! (read: carrot carrot!) if the lady was carrying a bouquet or stalk. If you don't catch the joke, never mind. Iam just being lame. We walked passed many individuals who tried selling flowers to us. He didn't have to reject them cause i would do the job. And that really shut them up. Seriously, a guy buying flowers for a girl on Vday itself seemed insincere.
I actually told my gfs that i wont be getting any stuff for him this Vday. But i still created something in the end; Small little handmade cards in which he mentioned that they were the most meaningful gifts that he ever received + his favourite Baci Chocs. Those Baci Chocs damm hard to find and i think they stopped mass-producing those bigger pieces.
He made me guess my present. Think i studied too much in the morning. My mind went kinda blank at every of his hint. Either that or his hints were...Well, you judge (:
1) It is soft
2) It is bigger than the box
3) It is wearable
4) It is foldable
5) You were looking for it for a long long time
6) It has two small holes and one big hole (This hint was the ultimate!!!!)
7) The color is very close to me. (i was sitting on a red sofa of pastamania)
Sounds like condoms right? I think that "hole" hint was the weirdest. My head kept screaming:"what hole what hole?!!" Before anyone think dirty or whatsoever it is, iam gonna give you the answer.
It is a pair of orange-red Nike running shorts.
I have been eyeing a pair of Adidas one. It is also orange-red. I love the cutting in particular. But they stopped producing last year. Was searching for quite long. But never mind. The Nike pair is sufficient.
We had a good long chat at Lido MacCafe. Those were the moments that i wish that it will go on and on. But the atmosphere just aint that romantic. With 50Cent and Sean Paul songs playing at the cafe, it felt like Chinablack. Speaking of that, i should be back at the clubbing scene pretty soon.
Sorry for digressing. Anyway, i still prefer East Coast. Our usual bench. The cool sea breeze. The miserable number of stars that i can just stare for hours. We just didn't have the time to go unfortunately. Well, next year. Maybe next year. Anyway, to be able to spend this day with him is good enough.
|12:39 PM|
Feeling so nolstagia. Do what i am feeling. But what am i doing wrong? What am i doing so wrong? Sometimes i see life as a struggle. Other times i see it as a light of my future. So what is it really?
I don't have the answer. Do you?
People changes over time. I did and iam fully aware of my change. Lack of discipline that is. And it aint just studies. What iam putting across here is that a slight change in my life has created a tremendous chain-effect over the past 1 year. I know it all started at my internship at SAP. I had my virgin taste of procrastination. As well as irresponsibilty. These 2 factors changed me to what iam now.
That's why life became melancholic as i struggle to regain back my old self. Emotions ran high and i needed much more support than i can ever get. I know i can't do this alone. I need my family. I need my friends. I need him.
I believed that at times, he, my friends, as well as people who reads this blog never understood my constant mood swings. To others, i could just be having my pms. But to me, those were the times where iwas trying to change myself.
No one knew. I didn't tell anyone. To be honest, i don't even know how to start talking about it. As what i told Serene dearest, the changing of your own character is one of the most challenging task ever. But, i guess iam gonna try tho.
I don't have the answer. Do you?
People changes over time. I did and iam fully aware of my change. Lack of discipline that is. And it aint just studies. What iam putting across here is that a slight change in my life has created a tremendous chain-effect over the past 1 year. I know it all started at my internship at SAP. I had my virgin taste of procrastination. As well as irresponsibilty. These 2 factors changed me to what iam now.
That's why life became melancholic as i struggle to regain back my old self. Emotions ran high and i needed much more support than i can ever get. I know i can't do this alone. I need my family. I need my friends. I need him.
I believed that at times, he, my friends, as well as people who reads this blog never understood my constant mood swings. To others, i could just be having my pms. But to me, those were the times where iwas trying to change myself.
No one knew. I didn't tell anyone. To be honest, i don't even know how to start talking about it. As what i told Serene dearest, the changing of your own character is one of the most challenging task ever. But, i guess iam gonna try tho.
|10:53 PM|
I caught the fireworks yesterday.
It wasn't planned.
It was my first time watching though.
That perfect spot at the Explanade.
That perfect timing at 9.30pm.
And most importantly,
It was my first time watching though.
That perfect spot at the Explanade.
That perfect timing at 9.30pm.
And most importantly,
With that perfect person sitting beside me.
|7:37 PM|