.......i am depressed.....
It is a depressing day today…the scenes from yesterday kept replaying and replaying in my mind…I am doubtful…asking me to give up clubbing is as good as asking me to chop off my right arm…however, if the chopping off my right arm can bring joy to people…I guess the sacrifice should be worth it…why make everyone unhappy? It is a situation now whereby everyone becomes happy and I became sad…so….well…I was heading for work today…been playing my mp3 player….in it contains all my fav R&B songs…kept thinking of Chinablack…I dunno why…guess that was the place where I first discovered those R&B songs….
My unhappy thoughts went away temporary when I reached Newton…guess what…I saw this really adorable dog…dunno what’s the breed though….it has very short legs and long body…the fur looks golden bronze…very very cute…it was so damm excited and for a moment, I thought the owner would end up flying with it…it reminded me so much of dino…hee~~ well…I felt a sudden urge to pat it…however, I didn’t want to as the owner might not like it….
Well…I m now drowning in my unhappy thoughts again…why do I keep facing the same problem over and over again…..i have no answer…guess it is my bad karma…my bad luck..my bad day…I never felt so stressed in my entire life b4….even the stress of studying doesn’t make me get outta control…I feel like leaving….feel like running away…I cant take it….I m so pressurized…but no worries…I wont commit suicide…I still wan my life…however, if I do died in a freak car accident or some stupid tragedy today…dun cry for me coz this will be my fate…my time is up…..
However, if I do survive today..i will be back to solve whatever problems that I had ran away from…but I guess…not now….till then….everyone please take care…
Love ya….
My unhappy thoughts went away temporary when I reached Newton…guess what…I saw this really adorable dog…dunno what’s the breed though….it has very short legs and long body…the fur looks golden bronze…very very cute…it was so damm excited and for a moment, I thought the owner would end up flying with it…it reminded me so much of dino…hee~~ well…I felt a sudden urge to pat it…however, I didn’t want to as the owner might not like it….
Well…I m now drowning in my unhappy thoughts again…why do I keep facing the same problem over and over again…..i have no answer…guess it is my bad karma…my bad luck..my bad day…I never felt so stressed in my entire life b4….even the stress of studying doesn’t make me get outta control…I feel like leaving….feel like running away…I cant take it….I m so pressurized…but no worries…I wont commit suicide…I still wan my life…however, if I do died in a freak car accident or some stupid tragedy today…dun cry for me coz this will be my fate…my time is up…..
However, if I do survive today..i will be back to solve whatever problems that I had ran away from…but I guess…not now….till then….everyone please take care…
Love ya….
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