Note: Ppl…b4 u decided to read my entry, im just gonna let u all know that this Is just another entry similar to the previous few…so kindly refrain frm scrolling down to read if you dun wanna see repeated stuff…thank you..
I seriously hate my life now…it is so messed up…so screwed up…I have never felt like this in my life b4….i get seriously frustrated over small stuff…regarding Ms Wendy, I’ii also get pretty uncomfortable @the slightest mention of her…dunno why…
When I am with my friends, iii always try to hide my troubled self…that’s pure torture…However, I dun wanna talk abt it either…guess this is what I call ‘running away from problems’….i m doing just that…I’ve no courage, no energy,, no mood to sort out my own feelings…there were times that I wanna talk to someone…tk this morning for instance, a gd fren called me and I felt like confiding in her all my problems…but somehow..i dunno what to say…I cant find the right words to say anything..i just kept sighing and sighing…I guess she dunno what to do as well…it suddenly dawn on me that whatever things that I wanna say is pretty meaningless and unnecessary…thus..i just ended this thing off by telling her: ‘Never mind…it is ok…’ and changed topic..I mean tt’s no point talking abt it and irritate the ppl around me…it just isn’t worth it…and I felt that I shouldn’t let my problems and sorrows affect my friends’ cheery selves…they just dun deserved it…Why make others suffer with ya….
I’ii be going shopping after work for BD and farewell gifts…a fren commented that I am always shopping and buying things that are not for myself…I told him that I dun need gifts…I dun need to shop for myself…at this moment…I just want a simple thing and that is happiness…he replied me by saying that happiness would come to me one day…but I really wonder when will this day come…..
PS: some ppl apparently found some of my entries rather entertaining…please…have a heart…I am NOT trying to be an entertainer here n I certainly dun find my entries amusing in any ways..=/.i am just penning down my thoughts n I think I am going through a rather bad patch now…if u guys want funny entries..go read wen’s blog…tt’s what I call real entertainment..
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