Xmas Day
Xmas Day
The time is 8.30pm now..i am alone at home, blogging; i haven't eaten anything since morning; i am now sick sick sick....'Ah choo!!!'
Pretty dreadful xmas but guess what..i dun seem to feel anything...guess i am numbed...i am just hungry...really hungry...waiting for the food that mum and dad are buying for me...lonliness plays an important part in this dreadful xmas...gone were those days that i celebrate xmas @Alvin's house...today, i paid a visit to his mum and granduncle...gotta make sure that both of them are well while Alvin is away...dad ever told me that this is not my responsibility coz ultimately, we have broke up....But i didn't care coz i am just doing what i should do...
His granduncle is already coming close to 90 years old..can you imagine if he is alone @home and had a fall or cut himself? i don't dare to imagine the consequences...When i visited his house, his granduncle was sitting by the window..taking a rest...and of coz, my beloved dino was standing by...well...all the memories came flooding back into my mind as i stepped into the house...i still remember vivdly that wed morning when Alvin left for China...i could see the sad faces around..including Dino...the feeling is tormenting...i can't describe it...i just feel that the house is really dark and empty...in the past, Fionne would come home and everyone helped prepare for Xmas celebration...but now...it is just so empty...
Anyway..the library was closed today...can't borrow my programming books..damm..i ain't feeling too well and headed for home...wanna take a good rest...
And the time now is 9.33pm and i finally had my 3-in-1 meals...wanton mee...n some other stuff that dad bought home..well...as mentioned in my previous entry, what is xmas like without Alvin? The ans is simple, lonliness...and i certainly don't hope that he is feeling this too...someone ask me recently 'What do you want for christmas?' I didn't reply...but deep down, i had the answer....
i just want happiness to find me........
The time is 8.30pm now..i am alone at home, blogging; i haven't eaten anything since morning; i am now sick sick sick....'Ah choo!!!'
Pretty dreadful xmas but guess what..i dun seem to feel anything...guess i am numbed...i am just hungry...really hungry...waiting for the food that mum and dad are buying for me...lonliness plays an important part in this dreadful xmas...gone were those days that i celebrate xmas @Alvin's house...today, i paid a visit to his mum and granduncle...gotta make sure that both of them are well while Alvin is away...dad ever told me that this is not my responsibility coz ultimately, we have broke up....But i didn't care coz i am just doing what i should do...
His granduncle is already coming close to 90 years old..can you imagine if he is alone @home and had a fall or cut himself? i don't dare to imagine the consequences...When i visited his house, his granduncle was sitting by the window..taking a rest...and of coz, my beloved dino was standing by...well...all the memories came flooding back into my mind as i stepped into the house...i still remember vivdly that wed morning when Alvin left for China...i could see the sad faces around..including Dino...the feeling is tormenting...i can't describe it...i just feel that the house is really dark and empty...in the past, Fionne would come home and everyone helped prepare for Xmas celebration...but now...it is just so empty...
Anyway..the library was closed today...can't borrow my programming books..damm..i ain't feeling too well and headed for home...wanna take a good rest...
And the time now is 9.33pm and i finally had my 3-in-1 meals...wanton mee...n some other stuff that dad bought home..well...as mentioned in my previous entry, what is xmas like without Alvin? The ans is simple, lonliness...and i certainly don't hope that he is feeling this too...someone ask me recently 'What do you want for christmas?' I didn't reply...but deep down, i had the answer....
i just want happiness to find me........
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