My first depressing entry after CNY
After that several outburst and tactless entries written before CNY, i vowed to change my attitude and become a better person. Everything is going well so far. Yes, i do try to refrain from writing depressing entries. Somehow, i just cant help it. So here it goes:
I have been indulging in ice cream lately. Almost 2-3 times a week. No peeps. Don't tell me bout' those calories that comes with it ya. I DON'T wanna listen. And just a recap of what i wrote in the past. I eat ice-cream for 2 reasons:
1) Time of the month is coming.
2) I wanna make myself happy. Even for a short moment.
It's usually only one reason. This time round, both reasons apply to my current situation. Damm.
Today was suppose to be my last day at SAP. But my system screwed up. No, not my system actually. It's the SAP server! Forcing me to return on monday to clear up the mess. My supervisor told me that there might be a possibility that they may not wanna use my system. It's like, what the hell man. I put in so dammm much effort and time to code out the system. And yes, Sis helped me in some ways but overall, i was alone doing this project for them. Basically, the bottom line is:
Everything is just so so disappointing. Many peeps told me to heck and leave. But somehow, i just cant.
I am tired. Wanna have a good sleep real badly. Haven't been sleeping well for 2 weeks already. =\
Met up with Mel and Eileen. I know both gals have their problems. Think Mel is in a pretty bad shape now. But she couldn't speak up. Not that she doesn't want to, just that she couldn't express herself properly. I know that is torturing. That's why i kept using my intuition to guess her problems, hoping to hit on the right one. Almost there tho. =)
As for Eileen, she is plagued by problems but as usual, she reserved her comments and act normal. Gal, you are troubled, so don't deny this k? From your entries, i can tell that you are as cynical as me ya. The old me actually. =p
Alritey, see you gals soon ya. Prolly on Mel's birthday. And Mel, you are crazy. Your birthday list included a handphone! Hah. Get a toy phone for ya la. =p
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