Feeling so down. Why?
The last thing i wanna hear is this:
"You should have confident in yourself. People should accept you for who you are. Dont feel so down. "
First and foremost, i do always have confident in myself. But i cant always do that 24/7. I cant always feel happy for the rest of my life. Much as i want to achieve that, it just aint possible. But i tried to fulfil the next best thing. And that is to stay positive as much as i can.
Next, i agree that people should accept me for who i am. And this have NEVER been an issue for me at all. As mentioned, true friends would accept me. The rest, "I am better off without you." Remember this sentence? Initially, it might hurt when your friends judge you. But as time goes by, you'ii just leave things as it is.
Lastly, asking me not to feel down is as good as asking you not to breathe. Not that i wanna be sad and stuff but really, no one can constantly put a smile on their faces rite? What i want is a listening ear and maybe even a comforting shoulder for me to lean on. Not telling me that i shouldnt behave like this or like that.
Yes, i do have my share of complaints and grievances. But i do try to do something about it. Very often, however, it aint what i always hope for.
CKk came over yesterday. Think it was the first time he didnt sees any "sunshine" in me. That's why at times, i don wish to meet my friends in my state. Just don wanna spread the gloomy-ness to them. This dude treated me to a Mac's sundae once i told him that ice cream makes people happy. Thanks anyway. I guess that's what friends are for right?
More ice cream to come. gimme low fat ice cream leh. Gimme gimme!
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