IN 2005...
how many galfriends? serene, fang, min, jun, mel, eileen, cindy, jess
how many breakups? er one? a gf's breakup.
how many crushes? tricky question. There was one before i entered smu. and it became two when i entered smu.
care to mention any names? prolly my current one. Alvin 'Diver' Cheong. Only the lasses knew who were the other two.
had to say goodbye to? i wish i said to him.
missed anyone? my dearest.
win anything? no jackpot. only won his heart. haha.
best place you went to? East Coast / Bedok Jetty. I saw the stars!
worst place you went to? nada
happiest moment?
- haha. prolly that 6am on 3rd dec, after Momo.
- any moment with him is happy.
- having the chance to meet up with my lasses after mia-ing for quite some time.
- love those moments when we bitched non-stop.
12 lessons you've learned from 2005?
1) Seriously, humans are evil la.
2) Life is just not about relationship. It's about family and friends too.
3) I don't wanna end my life through committing suicide. It is a horrendous way of dying.
4) Never be too trusting. i made a mistake. i really did. And i guess iam paying for it now.
5) I could clearly see the friends who have been there for me in my most vulnerable and those who have been so preoccupied with their social life that they just don't even send a word of condolence when grams passed away.
6) Being independent. Even in University.
7) True friends are those who don't judge you.
8) Love is blind to the extend that i didn't know why i was loving him that time.
9) A mature significant other is so important.
10) Life is short.
11) If you have it, flaunt it.
12) Clubbing is evil. Yes, i have been enlightened.
hope for this new year? Balance well in my relationship, family, studies and friends. Yes, tough job i have there. But im gonna try alright.
clothing item or outfit of the year? my micro mini skirt?
makeup product of the year? cranberry lip balm.
color of the year? still black.
car of the year? mazda.
food of the year? chicken la.
drink of the year? nada but i wanna try Waterfall.
class of the year? nopee.
gift of the year? self made gift by the boy
holiday of the year? nopee. but i hope to go aussie next year as mel, eileen, cindy and alvin dearest will be there. Good time to play!
achievements of the year? passing all my modules at smu? yes, no more distinctions and As. Not at the moment though.
|1:16 AM|
Xmas Day
Yes, you have been busy trying to create this puurrfect Xmas gift for me. But you know, life is not about creating the perfect person. Creating the perfect gift. Life is about loving the imperfect. And it ain't the perfect look that iam concerned. Instead, it's the effort, time and love that you have put in for this.
Yesterday afternoon, you were so careful in carrying the haversack that contained this present. And when you mentioned that it weighed about 3kg, i realized that you weren't kidding!! It was heavy.
The sea shells were picked up from the beaches. I know. Fang is right. I love it. I love the bigger shells in the second layer. iam particularly interested in the pure crystalized salt that you brought back from your diving stint in Indonesia. Those effort separating the sand and crystalized salt ain't easy. Afterwhich, you had to dry the salt crystals. Yes, heaven played a trick on you. They rained on your almost-dried crytsals. (:
Not forgetting to mention the time taken to melt and pour the wax into the Ikea-bottle. In which i suspected that you had actually made some mistakes here and there. Causing you to start all over. I know it was hard work. And you didn't sleep much as well. But my present for you ain't easy work too k. (:
I met up with Fang, Min and Jun at Suntec. I think our gifts are getting more and more meaningful each year. Yes jun, more xmas celebration to come. (: Was at Sin Ming in the morning. Attending some prayers session for grams. I know i will be late. Taking a cab down seemed like the only option. Anyway, iam quite a road-idiot when it comes to areas other than the west.
Anyway, fang and min late. goodness. We had lunch at Crystal Jade la mian. (yes, la mian again. Had that with my SMU friends last week). Exchanging of gifts seemed fun. My gifts may not be more as compared to last year, but you know, this year's gifts seemed more meaningful. And iam just glad that i was able to celebrate Xmas with the people i adore. He joined us for lunch and the lasses chased me outta Crystal Jade so as to take a peep at his present for me.
Jun gave this cd containing ppt slides. It felt nolstagia and i was reminiscing about the past. Those times at Year 1/2/3. Poly was fun alright. Really fun. Yes Jun, my never-comb-hair (do you know it was raining that evening?) and Min's attempt-to-act-sporty-but-failed-badly. Haha. All damm funny can. And your mini-mouse balloon. Just to let ya know this.
I deflated it. Haha.
Fang gave this handmade cross-stitch. Yes, all the same design. She is smart. And i did the same too. Whatever present that i gave them, it'ii all be the same. EOns back, the four of us went Indochine for a chillout. I gave them handmade cards. All different designs. Gotten haunted by fang and jun cause' my designs for them ain't that great. Cross-stitching may be simple. But having to complete 3 of them in a few days ain't easy. I know that amount of time and effort being put in. (: I remembered fang making us small pouches. And we used it to store our pads. Haha.
Min, as usual, gave us something from IKEA. You member of Ikea hur? Why always buy present from there? Haha. It is a kerosene oil lamp. With our pictures on the cover. Damm nice la. (: Prolly be putting pics in my next entry.
Having my last week of holiday. Shall be meeting up with Serene, Mel and gang. And prolly spending more time with my dearest as well. With the start of school, it's gonna get real busy again. And yes, before i end off, have a good xmas people. Enjoy 2005.
Yesterday afternoon, you were so careful in carrying the haversack that contained this present. And when you mentioned that it weighed about 3kg, i realized that you weren't kidding!! It was heavy.
The sea shells were picked up from the beaches. I know. Fang is right. I love it. I love the bigger shells in the second layer. iam particularly interested in the pure crystalized salt that you brought back from your diving stint in Indonesia. Those effort separating the sand and crystalized salt ain't easy. Afterwhich, you had to dry the salt crystals. Yes, heaven played a trick on you. They rained on your almost-dried crytsals. (:
Not forgetting to mention the time taken to melt and pour the wax into the Ikea-bottle. In which i suspected that you had actually made some mistakes here and there. Causing you to start all over. I know it was hard work. And you didn't sleep much as well. But my present for you ain't easy work too k. (:
I met up with Fang, Min and Jun at Suntec. I think our gifts are getting more and more meaningful each year. Yes jun, more xmas celebration to come. (: Was at Sin Ming in the morning. Attending some prayers session for grams. I know i will be late. Taking a cab down seemed like the only option. Anyway, iam quite a road-idiot when it comes to areas other than the west.
Anyway, fang and min late. goodness. We had lunch at Crystal Jade la mian. (yes, la mian again. Had that with my SMU friends last week). Exchanging of gifts seemed fun. My gifts may not be more as compared to last year, but you know, this year's gifts seemed more meaningful. And iam just glad that i was able to celebrate Xmas with the people i adore. He joined us for lunch and the lasses chased me outta Crystal Jade so as to take a peep at his present for me.
Jun gave this cd containing ppt slides. It felt nolstagia and i was reminiscing about the past. Those times at Year 1/2/3. Poly was fun alright. Really fun. Yes Jun, my never-comb-hair (do you know it was raining that evening?) and Min's attempt-to-act-sporty-but-failed-badly. Haha. All damm funny can. And your mini-mouse balloon. Just to let ya know this.
I deflated it. Haha.
Fang gave this handmade cross-stitch. Yes, all the same design. She is smart. And i did the same too. Whatever present that i gave them, it'ii all be the same. EOns back, the four of us went Indochine for a chillout. I gave them handmade cards. All different designs. Gotten haunted by fang and jun cause' my designs for them ain't that great. Cross-stitching may be simple. But having to complete 3 of them in a few days ain't easy. I know that amount of time and effort being put in. (: I remembered fang making us small pouches. And we used it to store our pads. Haha.
Min, as usual, gave us something from IKEA. You member of Ikea hur? Why always buy present from there? Haha. It is a kerosene oil lamp. With our pictures on the cover. Damm nice la. (: Prolly be putting pics in my next entry.
Having my last week of holiday. Shall be meeting up with Serene, Mel and gang. And prolly spending more time with my dearest as well. With the start of school, it's gonna get real busy again. And yes, before i end off, have a good xmas people. Enjoy 2005.
|5:48 PM|
Random facts:
i've always wish to see a sky full of stars.
i love to eat chicken and fish.
i have a thing for older guys.
i also have a thing for navy guys. (don't ask me why. i donno.)
i love gymnastics, even tho i never have proper formal training before.
i don't make friends through friendster or IRC.
My nick in IRC was Velle.
Sometimes, i changed it to BigBigGirl. And all teekohpeks start to message me about my chest size. (faggots!)
i dislike crowds.
i dislike friends who come to me only when they have problems.
i like down-to-earth and humble people.
i hate guys who show nil respect for girls' dignity.
i love cocktails. Especially lychee martini and lamborghini.
i love dancing in his arms.
Prolly one of those random facts that doesn't really make any sense or linkage to the next line. But who cares right?
Yes, the SIM bash was good. I met a couple of SMU people there. And seriously, SIM was way better than SMU. I guess the SIM students were more enthusiatic. Ours sounded rather dead. Thanks to Serene dearest for the tickets. Even though it was only Serene, Joel, Caiying, Shirleena (i think), my dearest boy and i, it was still good. I guess it's quality clubbing. One which i have always wanted. The previous few sessions weren't that great to be honest.
Initially, i was concerned that Joel and him wouldn't talk much due to the age gap. But nope. They seemed to hit off quite well. I was just glad la. Yes, Serene dearest, Joel danced with ya. And so did Alvin. He didn't exactly dance. But he groove. He really did. And it was because of me. (: That was prolly one of the reasons on why clubbing was great on thursday night.
Anyway, i am down with cough. And i feel so frustrated over it. In addition, the clutter on my table doesn't help in reducing my frustration. We went to Carlton Hotel for a birthday celebration for dad. Buffet lunch that is. We can't exactly celebrate as we are still in the 49-days of mourning. After which, we went scouting for computer chairs. For your infor, i broke two of my chairs. Yes, it was umbrellas last time. Went to Carrefour and we saw this black computer chair.
It looked tiny to me okay. And i doubt my butt can hold the weight. Yes, at 16 bucks, it is cheap. We were contemplating and sis queried something. Her exact sentence: "What is the weight that the chair can support?" Damm evil can? It sounded so lame that i started laughing. And the saleman looked puzzled. As usual, we are all getting cynic. We never bought that. And yes, i am off to scout for a bigger and more reliable chair. ASAP. Don't want my ass to kiss the floor any sooner.
i've always wish to see a sky full of stars.
i love to eat chicken and fish.
i have a thing for older guys.
i also have a thing for navy guys. (don't ask me why. i donno.)
i love gymnastics, even tho i never have proper formal training before.
i don't make friends through friendster or IRC.
My nick in IRC was Velle.
Sometimes, i changed it to BigBigGirl. And all teekohpeks start to message me about my chest size. (faggots!)
i dislike crowds.
i dislike friends who come to me only when they have problems.
i like down-to-earth and humble people.
i hate guys who show nil respect for girls' dignity.
i love cocktails. Especially lychee martini and lamborghini.
i love dancing in his arms.
Prolly one of those random facts that doesn't really make any sense or linkage to the next line. But who cares right?
Yes, the SIM bash was good. I met a couple of SMU people there. And seriously, SIM was way better than SMU. I guess the SIM students were more enthusiatic. Ours sounded rather dead. Thanks to Serene dearest for the tickets. Even though it was only Serene, Joel, Caiying, Shirleena (i think), my dearest boy and i, it was still good. I guess it's quality clubbing. One which i have always wanted. The previous few sessions weren't that great to be honest.
Initially, i was concerned that Joel and him wouldn't talk much due to the age gap. But nope. They seemed to hit off quite well. I was just glad la. Yes, Serene dearest, Joel danced with ya. And so did Alvin. He didn't exactly dance. But he groove. He really did. And it was because of me. (: That was prolly one of the reasons on why clubbing was great on thursday night.
Anyway, i am down with cough. And i feel so frustrated over it. In addition, the clutter on my table doesn't help in reducing my frustration. We went to Carlton Hotel for a birthday celebration for dad. Buffet lunch that is. We can't exactly celebrate as we are still in the 49-days of mourning. After which, we went scouting for computer chairs. For your infor, i broke two of my chairs. Yes, it was umbrellas last time. Went to Carrefour and we saw this black computer chair.
It looked tiny to me okay. And i doubt my butt can hold the weight. Yes, at 16 bucks, it is cheap. We were contemplating and sis queried something. Her exact sentence: "What is the weight that the chair can support?" Damm evil can? It sounded so lame that i started laughing. And the saleman looked puzzled. As usual, we are all getting cynic. We never bought that. And yes, i am off to scout for a bigger and more reliable chair. ASAP. Don't want my ass to kiss the floor any sooner.
|11:59 PM|
Note:
Due to some family issues, i had remove the previous entry ya. Please don't be surprised.
Time, again passes soo soo fast. It was almost a week since gong gong's demise. And seriously, i haven't taken a rest since the end of exams. Was suppose to attend a one-week crash course on report writing. Skipped the exemption test as my group was busy with the numerous projects. But i really regretted not going tho. I don't mean to say this but i felt that it was a complete waste of time.
Anyway, exams were a torture. And the one-week course was no exception. Was already planning to relax after last week. But the tragedy occured. Days of travelling to and fro Singapore Casket was tiring. And everyone, especially mom and her siblings. Well, it is quite over now. So hope to rest till school term starts in Jan 1st.
To all who tagged, sms, called, thanks for your concern. I'ii be fine. And especially to my dearest boy, thanks for your company at the wake for two days. I know you were awkward. But you stayed on because of me. I really don't know what i'ii do without you. (:
Anyway, my greatest apologies to friends whose birthday falls this month. I just can't celebrate. Mom and dad forbid me to do so. There are some kind of rules and whatsoever that i have to follow. Somehow, it will affect the birthday girl/guy negatively. Thus, i don't wish to risk that. Till the next entry, everyone, please take great care. Prolly it'ii be my yearly reflection entry. (:
|12:45 AM|
"A Twist of fate."I briefly mentioned it to you weeks back. Telling you my love for musicals after watching the Forbidden City with my NP friends. You started planning. Planning to give me a surprise last Sunday. I never knew about that until on saturday night, sis was casually asking me about my dress code for Sunday's ktv outing with mouse and gang. I told her: "The usual. skirt, tank top, slippers."
That worried her. She told me to dress up more formally. i grew a lil' suspicious. And then, i started eyeing at her "very pretty and sweet" pink tube dress. (for those who know me, i don't really like pink very much. Preferred magenta) She says i'ii be the laughing stock of the group if i wore that. Too formal. I grew impatient. She ain't that satisfied with my dressing. In the end, i opt for the slight-off-shoulder black top and white skirt. That worried look finally went off. (:
We left Cine Kbox early. You brought me to Esplanade. And somehow, i snatched the two tickets from you. Imprinted on the tickets was "Twist of fate", 4pm, Sunday. I may have appeared normal upon seeing the tickets. But deep in my heart, i was ecstatic. Overjoyed. Thrilled. I ain't good at expressing my feelings of astound-ment. Maybe it's because i seldom have such pleasant surprises.
Thank you. Is there really a twist of fate in our lives now? Perhaps we both have the answer. (:
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READ: serene, mel and eileen, I am dating you girls out very soon ya. Just one more week of studying and im really outta my smu cage.
|11:28 PM|