Chinese New Year is round the corner. And i have yet to get my clothes fully. Yes, i had set my eyes on a couple of outfit. It's either the clothes were too pricy or it doesn't really fit well. Not that i can't fit but i certainly don't appreciate my jeans or skirts hanging at my waist area. I do prefer hipsters, much to the annoyance of my parents' and my dearest.
The reason for the delay in getting new clothes was also because iam quite broke. Intend to borrow some cash from mom. For your infor, i seldom use mom's money to buy stuff. As much as i hate to work during my course of study at uni, i know i can't. Some faggot lectured me years back. Telling me to cut down on clubbing as my family was working so hard to make ends meet. so damm maddening can. Yes, i still have some allowance from mom for school. But i have my principles. I don't touch her money when i clubbed. It's purely from my savings or my work.
Well, i know i shouldn't let negativity ruin any of my days. Apparently, something happened days back and my emotions ran high. Sometimes, i really want a listening ear. Prolly not many knows how i control my emotions. But darn, it's a goddam tough job. Simply because iam born an emotional lass.
When i think of my 3 good friends, who will be leaving for Aussie very soon,
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i think of Mel, my good friend of 10 years, who will be stationing at Aussie for 2 years consecutively and at the moment, made no plans to return to Singapore any sooner,
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When the lady at IMH relate a story on how one of her mental patients absconded from the hospital and running to a HDB to commit suicide, i thought of my grandpa.
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i thought that i might be losing someone,
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i found out that a good friend judge me, iam so afraid of a similar incident happening.
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i see a bumpy road ahead of us, i thought of my past. A past that constantly serves as a reminder for me to be strong.
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i realized that i didn't received the support i needed in my most vulnerable,
i didn't control.
The reason for the delay in getting new clothes was also because iam quite broke. Intend to borrow some cash from mom. For your infor, i seldom use mom's money to buy stuff. As much as i hate to work during my course of study at uni, i know i can't. Some faggot lectured me years back. Telling me to cut down on clubbing as my family was working so hard to make ends meet. so damm maddening can. Yes, i still have some allowance from mom for school. But i have my principles. I don't touch her money when i clubbed. It's purely from my savings or my work.
Well, i know i shouldn't let negativity ruin any of my days. Apparently, something happened days back and my emotions ran high. Sometimes, i really want a listening ear. Prolly not many knows how i control my emotions. But darn, it's a goddam tough job. Simply because iam born an emotional lass.
When i think of my 3 good friends, who will be leaving for Aussie very soon,
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i think of Mel, my good friend of 10 years, who will be stationing at Aussie for 2 years consecutively and at the moment, made no plans to return to Singapore any sooner,
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When the lady at IMH relate a story on how one of her mental patients absconded from the hospital and running to a HDB to commit suicide, i thought of my grandpa.
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i thought that i might be losing someone,
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i found out that a good friend judge me, iam so afraid of a similar incident happening.
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i see a bumpy road ahead of us, i thought of my past. A past that constantly serves as a reminder for me to be strong.
I feel like tearing but i controlled.
When i realized that i didn't received the support i needed in my most vulnerable,
i didn't control.
I just teared.
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