Feeling so nolstagia. Do what i am feeling. But what am i doing wrong? What am i doing so wrong? Sometimes i see life as a struggle. Other times i see it as a light of my future. So what is it really?
I don't have the answer. Do you?
People changes over time. I did and iam fully aware of my change. Lack of discipline that is. And it aint just studies. What iam putting across here is that a slight change in my life has created a tremendous chain-effect over the past 1 year. I know it all started at my internship at SAP. I had my virgin taste of procrastination. As well as irresponsibilty. These 2 factors changed me to what iam now.
That's why life became melancholic as i struggle to regain back my old self. Emotions ran high and i needed much more support than i can ever get. I know i can't do this alone. I need my family. I need my friends. I need him.
I believed that at times, he, my friends, as well as people who reads this blog never understood my constant mood swings. To others, i could just be having my pms. But to me, those were the times where iwas trying to change myself.
No one knew. I didn't tell anyone. To be honest, i don't even know how to start talking about it. As what i told Serene dearest, the changing of your own character is one of the most challenging task ever. But, i guess iam gonna try tho.
I don't have the answer. Do you?
People changes over time. I did and iam fully aware of my change. Lack of discipline that is. And it aint just studies. What iam putting across here is that a slight change in my life has created a tremendous chain-effect over the past 1 year. I know it all started at my internship at SAP. I had my virgin taste of procrastination. As well as irresponsibilty. These 2 factors changed me to what iam now.
That's why life became melancholic as i struggle to regain back my old self. Emotions ran high and i needed much more support than i can ever get. I know i can't do this alone. I need my family. I need my friends. I need him.
I believed that at times, he, my friends, as well as people who reads this blog never understood my constant mood swings. To others, i could just be having my pms. But to me, those were the times where iwas trying to change myself.
No one knew. I didn't tell anyone. To be honest, i don't even know how to start talking about it. As what i told Serene dearest, the changing of your own character is one of the most challenging task ever. But, i guess iam gonna try tho.
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