I was so close to be suffering from Dysthymia. I never knew that. Was constantly getting severe mood swings and such. Nearly paid a visit to Doctor Lee for depression pills. You know what saved me?
a 2-hour television program.
An extremely simple act that had saved me from slipping into depression. Days after that were much better. No longer do i feel the daily swings. Only once in a while. Today at IMH, i saw a quote from the front desk. "It is not a problem when you know that it is a problem. It is merely a challenge." Yes, life was a challenge to me for the past 10 months. Now, i hope iam able to find peace within myself.
I have actually experienced a couple of peaceful moments 2 weeks back. To me, this is self-fulfilment. Peaceful moments aint equivalent to nil problems. I had/still have problems during that 2 weeks. Just that iwas able to handle it much better than before.
In that period of time, i had my family, alvin and many friends worrying for me. Initially, i thought i had to fight this battle all by myself. But i was so wrong. All the concern. All the support. All the shoulders that i cried on. All the ears that have listened. All have done their utmost best to pull me back from slipping into depression. From that moment, i knew i wasnt alone. And iam really thankful for that.
Metup with serene baybeh on both thurs and fri. As usual, we had our usual crap and yes, that finger issue will be embedded in my mind for life. Whenever i think of it now, it never fails to bring a frown* to my face. You're right, it's ewwww and yucks! (:
The Floorskills' competition at Cineleisure yesterday was simply fabulous. Those break-dancers were really good. Especially the ones from Thailand, Japan and Aussie (i think) I swear Serene was drooling at the sight of that Aussie bboy when he took off his shirt. HAha. Charlie did a great job. But i doubt Kesh and him saw us cause it was freaking packed at Cine.
alvin may be leaving for diving assignments pretty soon. I donno when. Nobody knows when. yes, i was filled with emotions when he broke the news to me initially as the overseas assignments will last 2-3months. And in some extreme cases, i may not be able to contact him at all for the seabed has no reception. Whatever it is, iam taking things in my stride. It wont be easy though but everything is worth a try right? What iam putting across here is that some times, i did wish to switch roles with girls whose bfs are enlisting in army. Yes, there will always be complaints that their bfs dont spend enough time with them. Just remember, when you feel the urge to complain, think of me ya.
a 2-hour television program.
An extremely simple act that had saved me from slipping into depression. Days after that were much better. No longer do i feel the daily swings. Only once in a while. Today at IMH, i saw a quote from the front desk. "It is not a problem when you know that it is a problem. It is merely a challenge." Yes, life was a challenge to me for the past 10 months. Now, i hope iam able to find peace within myself.
I have actually experienced a couple of peaceful moments 2 weeks back. To me, this is self-fulfilment. Peaceful moments aint equivalent to nil problems. I had/still have problems during that 2 weeks. Just that iwas able to handle it much better than before.
In that period of time, i had my family, alvin and many friends worrying for me. Initially, i thought i had to fight this battle all by myself. But i was so wrong. All the concern. All the support. All the shoulders that i cried on. All the ears that have listened. All have done their utmost best to pull me back from slipping into depression. From that moment, i knew i wasnt alone. And iam really thankful for that.
Metup with serene baybeh on both thurs and fri. As usual, we had our usual crap and yes, that finger issue will be embedded in my mind for life. Whenever i think of it now, it never fails to bring a frown* to my face. You're right, it's ewwww and yucks! (:
The Floorskills' competition at Cineleisure yesterday was simply fabulous. Those break-dancers were really good. Especially the ones from Thailand, Japan and Aussie (i think) I swear Serene was drooling at the sight of that Aussie bboy when he took off his shirt. HAha. Charlie did a great job. But i doubt Kesh and him saw us cause it was freaking packed at Cine.
alvin may be leaving for diving assignments pretty soon. I donno when. Nobody knows when. yes, i was filled with emotions when he broke the news to me initially as the overseas assignments will last 2-3months. And in some extreme cases, i may not be able to contact him at all for the seabed has no reception. Whatever it is, iam taking things in my stride. It wont be easy though but everything is worth a try right? What iam putting across here is that some times, i did wish to switch roles with girls whose bfs are enlisting in army. Yes, there will always be complaints that their bfs dont spend enough time with them. Just remember, when you feel the urge to complain, think of me ya.
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