Friendship
Added: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest bestie, Serene!
Friendship. This is how i measure friendship.
1) Level of understanding **
2) Level of closeness
3) Level of honesty *
4) Level of sacrificing
Of course not ALL besties have fulfilled everything above so perfectly. I am not one who likes taking initiative in maintaining friendship. Dont ask me why for i really dont know. I should really count my lucky stars for those besties who have walked down the journey of friendship with me for these past few years.
Now if you ask me, the closest person to understand me totally would be sister. And prolly fang is the next person. I always believe that the quality time that friends spent together contributes to the level of understanding they have for one another. Sis and fang saw me through my ups and downs since Mister No. 1 days. As i grow older, i begin to see more and realise which friendships are the ones worth keeping and which ones aren't.
Yesterday, Sis and i were at Plaza Singapura. Dad wanted burger for supper. As sis was walking towards one of the fast food chain, i quickly pulled her to one side upon seeing an acquaintance at the counter. Sis's mind went blank momentarily. It was like, 'kua dio gui'! (saw ghost) I better blog this earlier cos next week is the start of Ghost Festival (:
We werent exactly close to her at all but she just kept asking us out for meals ktv clubbing and such. We are both peaceful people and hence, open confrontation is certainly not our cuppa' tea. So we siam! To be frank, i'ii rather go out with people whose company i enjoy. Why do i have to pretend to be nice when i am truly not? Anw, i think i am an extremely straightforward person. Can get pretty nasty when retaliating to the people i dislike. But for besties and other friends, i am usually tactful.
And when school term starts, i'ii be even more selective of the people whom i hang out with. Besties will be top priority. BY came over yesterday night and he noticed some changes in me. I told him: 'University shapes people's character.' I have ever mentioned before that university is a replica of the working society. Prolly i have changed to protect myself.
I dont wanna be a lost soul in University. Don't wanna be asking myself: "Why am i taking a Bachelor in Business for? What is my aim in life? What are my goals?
Iam already 21. To start pondering at such a stage is late. The world is moving and yes, time waits for no man. This thought will prolly change as i get older, but i believe at the moment, i already know what i want. I am studying a degree in Business for a cause and i am gonna work towards it. And one of my friend's nick in msn stated: 'Obstacles arises only when you lose sight of the goal.' How true can that be.
Sorry i digress. Anw, what i wanna say is, I have changed since i grad from NP. Naturally. I am able to tell who are the ones who are sincere and who arent. Intuition doesnt fail me. I may be blur but I don't have to remain as one forever.
I used to silently tolerate when friends took me for granted and when people backstab me by taking credit for my work. But life changes. I have changed. So before friends asked me about why i didnt contact them for eons and whatsoever, reflect on your actions first. I wont hesitate to be nice anymore. My reason is simple, you're not worth my time and friendship.
Anyway, birthday is coming up in less than a month's time. I can't believe i am turing 21 soon. Yes, birthdays are very important to me. But sadly, the boyfriend won't be here to celebrate this significant day due to work commitments. I don't blame him alright. Really. And i don't even know when he is coming back. Firstly, it was 2 months. Then it became >2 months. Then now, it became like, maybe 6 months? Seriously, i didnt even realise this relationship has became a long-distance relationship :)
; Holding your hand always feels magical, Mister Tott.
This feeling has never change for these past 8 months.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo <3.>
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