birthday feelings
Twenty first birthday meant a whole lot to me. It was celebrated with mixed feelings, joy and anticipation. And of course, with the company of my family, close poly friends and batch 85 people, that 13 August felt rather complete but not totally. Reason being, there was a missing jigsaw to my puzzle. That jigsaw was him. But i understand he has to work. So to forgo coming to my Birthday is a big sacrifice both of us had to make.
I spent alot of time on this somewhat simple celebration. And the worse part was, iam a darn picky perfectionista. Everything, from the colors of balloons, to the layout of the invitation card was suppose to be PERFECT. But of course, slight hiccups though.
As mentioned, i had mixed feelings. On one hand, i want to grow up badly and be more mature in my thinking. On the other hand, i just want to be free from all responsibilities that come along now. But of course, that was an irresponsible statement. I know i cant do that.
Have you ever wonder what does turning twenty-one means to you? Has it ever occur to you that you're already an adult? And you should think and behave like an adult? I believe many friends who has been through their twenty-first dont see the significance of adulthood. Pardon me if iam wrong but that was what i observed.
Have you ever thought about your future? Have you ever try to make plans on what you're gonna do after you grad from Uni? Have you thought of a long-term investment so that your parents can happily retire from the working scene? Have you manage to tap on your strengths and improve your weaknesses so as to prepare yourself for survival? Have you?
Practical issues aside. How about emotional issues? Have you tried to grow up and think like a mature adult? Are you able to constantly put your emotions one side when studies or work comes along? Are you able to immune yourself from any hurt that occur?
All these issues have always been embedded in my mind. The moment where i fully understood and analyse the issues was when i turned twenty one. It was just so coincidence that my family had some issues that week. And that was probably the trigger to my thoughts. I know, i think too much. But as mentioned before, time waits for no man. And i aint gonna wait.
Note: iam in the midst of creating a new blog skin. Pardon my entries, or rather, the lackof it :)
I spent alot of time on this somewhat simple celebration. And the worse part was, iam a darn picky perfectionista. Everything, from the colors of balloons, to the layout of the invitation card was suppose to be PERFECT. But of course, slight hiccups though.
As mentioned, i had mixed feelings. On one hand, i want to grow up badly and be more mature in my thinking. On the other hand, i just want to be free from all responsibilities that come along now. But of course, that was an irresponsible statement. I know i cant do that.
Have you ever wonder what does turning twenty-one means to you? Has it ever occur to you that you're already an adult? And you should think and behave like an adult? I believe many friends who has been through their twenty-first dont see the significance of adulthood. Pardon me if iam wrong but that was what i observed.
Have you ever thought about your future? Have you ever try to make plans on what you're gonna do after you grad from Uni? Have you thought of a long-term investment so that your parents can happily retire from the working scene? Have you manage to tap on your strengths and improve your weaknesses so as to prepare yourself for survival? Have you?
Practical issues aside. How about emotional issues? Have you tried to grow up and think like a mature adult? Are you able to constantly put your emotions one side when studies or work comes along? Are you able to immune yourself from any hurt that occur?
All these issues have always been embedded in my mind. The moment where i fully understood and analyse the issues was when i turned twenty one. It was just so coincidence that my family had some issues that week. And that was probably the trigger to my thoughts. I know, i think too much. But as mentioned before, time waits for no man. And i aint gonna wait.
Note: iam in the midst of creating a new blog skin. Pardon my entries, or rather, the lackof it :)
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