For the first time in this relationship, i think i hurt him. And that silly boy just accept whatever things i said to him and kept silent. *Guilty* Alright, i really felt extremely guilty. But i know, he was magnanimous enough to NOT take that issue to heart.
y'know, in relationships, i always strive to be the perfect girlfriend. Constantly trying to be mature and considerate in ALL issues that arose. But in the midst of being someone perfect, i tend to lose myself. Lose my real personality. But I guess, i was just afraid of losing my significant other. And of course, i gotten more vulnerable as a result, frequently setting high expectations for myself and him. Yes, that was the PERFECT example of misery.
But i know myself, i seldom let people down first. It is usually the opposite. Nuff said.
The boyfriend has yet to confirm his flight home. He said he should arrive in Singapore on the 9th or 10th. And yknow what? Iam leaving Singapore on the 10th Morning =( Really not fated. Next week is kinda rushing. Have to do some spring cleaning for his room. I just visited his parents last sunday. His room was damm freakin' dusty. And i think those accumulated dust will send him sneezing for months. He has an extremely sensitive nose by the way.
y'know, in relationships, i always strive to be the perfect girlfriend. Constantly trying to be mature and considerate in ALL issues that arose. But in the midst of being someone perfect, i tend to lose myself. Lose my real personality. But I guess, i was just afraid of losing my significant other. And of course, i gotten more vulnerable as a result, frequently setting high expectations for myself and him. Yes, that was the PERFECT example of misery.
But i know myself, i seldom let people down first. It is usually the opposite. Nuff said.
The boyfriend has yet to confirm his flight home. He said he should arrive in Singapore on the 9th or 10th. And yknow what? Iam leaving Singapore on the 10th Morning =( Really not fated. Next week is kinda rushing. Have to do some spring cleaning for his room. I just visited his parents last sunday. His room was damm freakin' dusty. And i think those accumulated dust will send him sneezing for months. He has an extremely sensitive nose by the way.
Well, iam still getting the occasional swings but moods have been better. I just cant wait for exams to end quickly. Paper was alright today. Bel was rubbing her paper so hard that the whole table shook for a while (two people to a table) I was getting dizzy =p
Okay, not funny. After my last paper this sat, iam so, gonna enjoy my first week in Singapore. Afterwhich, its travelling for me. Been longing to go Thailand for a long time with the boyfriend. I just thought its something we deserve after being apart for so long.
I still love this picture =)
Okay, not funny. After my last paper this sat, iam so, gonna enjoy my first week in Singapore. Afterwhich, its travelling for me. Been longing to go Thailand for a long time with the boyfriend. I just thought its something we deserve after being apart for so long.
I still love this picture =)
prolly hitting mambo with my smu mates next week. anyone wanna come?
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