thoughts
Sometimes i wonder if i should really pen my own personal thoughts in this blog. I know only friends i know has this link and occasionally, some strangers might drop by but those were few though. Actually, i can now sense the environment changing me. I sense that transformation. And iam really afraid to see my own future. I have always been told to trust my own intuition.
Iam now at a cross road of my own character building. I can see what i will become if i were to take either road. I can see it extremely clearly. And i did mention to sis, mom, dad and the boyfriend that now, its a crucial timing for my own character developing. Yes, peer pressure and environment might play a part in shaping myself. However, i am still greatly influence by my love ones. Reason being, i trust them. I trust that they wont hurt me and will be able to guide me. Iam an extremist. If not properly guided, i can be quite a trouble-maker. I know friends might see me as being cynical. But really, iam just being honest here.
Yes, iam twenty one. But i just thought my views should be heard! Why am i being put down? Why am i being ridiculed? I deserved to be heard! It just makes me angry that my thought are being laughed at. What's wrong with hearing my opinions? What's wrong with me being twenty one? What's wrong?
I have at times being forced to build a barrier around me. This barrier prevents me from getting hurt from anything. I really meant anything. I did attempt to do that. Boy, sis said it was scary. This is because, in the midst of guarding myself, i became emotionless. I have no feelings for anything and anyone. And this is what that truly frightens me. I dont wish to behave like that.
But are you able to pull me back from this? Or rather,
Do you want to pull me back from this?
I know you feel pressurized. But life has its choices. Its a matter of whether you made the right one. Its your choice. I aint forcing. And i aint giving up. Cause i know what i want. By the way, Happy One Year. Long and eventful year we had. Don't know what the future has in stored for us. But iam certain, it wont be a bed of roses.
Iam now at a cross road of my own character building. I can see what i will become if i were to take either road. I can see it extremely clearly. And i did mention to sis, mom, dad and the boyfriend that now, its a crucial timing for my own character developing. Yes, peer pressure and environment might play a part in shaping myself. However, i am still greatly influence by my love ones. Reason being, i trust them. I trust that they wont hurt me and will be able to guide me. Iam an extremist. If not properly guided, i can be quite a trouble-maker. I know friends might see me as being cynical. But really, iam just being honest here.
Yes, iam twenty one. But i just thought my views should be heard! Why am i being put down? Why am i being ridiculed? I deserved to be heard! It just makes me angry that my thought are being laughed at. What's wrong with hearing my opinions? What's wrong with me being twenty one? What's wrong?
I have at times being forced to build a barrier around me. This barrier prevents me from getting hurt from anything. I really meant anything. I did attempt to do that. Boy, sis said it was scary. This is because, in the midst of guarding myself, i became emotionless. I have no feelings for anything and anyone. And this is what that truly frightens me. I dont wish to behave like that.
But are you able to pull me back from this? Or rather,
Do you want to pull me back from this?
I know you feel pressurized. But life has its choices. Its a matter of whether you made the right one. Its your choice. I aint forcing. And i aint giving up. Cause i know what i want. By the way, Happy One Year. Long and eventful year we had. Don't know what the future has in stored for us. But iam certain, it wont be a bed of roses.
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